the week in review…

September 13, 2009

wow! … it has been crazy at the matthews this week.  all I can really say about it is … wow.  a little head shaking in there and just amazement at how God just sits you down sometimes.

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let me start with the first day of school.  the boys did great.  on the bus for cole and a ride from mom for dawson.  I always take a picture of the kids in the morning as they are getting ready to head off.  a little tradition for us.  I took gabrielle’s too even though she officially starts kindergarten the following day.  of course this is a little bittersweet.  I should be taking a first day of school '09 017picture of luke too.  even though he wouldn’t be going to school, I still like to have a ‘where were you’ kind of picture for everyone.  and of course, my sweet baby girl is headed off for the first time!  it was a little tough, but I did hold it together. 

so, that was the first day of school.  the second day for the boys was tfirst day of school '09 026he first for punkin.  she was so excited and did just great.  brian and I stood at the bus stop for 45 minutes waiting for her bus to come around the corner to drop her off.  here comes the bus around the corner with her beautiful smiling face looking right out the front window just as proud as punch!!  it was a very memorable moment.  some pretty great days.

 

now let me tell you about the ‘God sitting me right down’ moment….

after I dropped gabrielle off wednesday morning I didn’t rally want to come home.  the house would be empty and it just shouldn’t be.  I was so looking forward to the fall and being able to spend the mornings with luke and luke alone.  I should have a baby boy at home.  I haven’t been alone in this house ever.  I haven’t been alone in my life  ever!  I went straight from my parents to married to brian to cole and then dawson and then gabrielle.  12 years of being a mom.  I sat at the stop light crying, not wanting to make the turn into my neighborhood and go home to the empty, quiet house.

obviously I had to and did.  I came in and went right to the computer and checked email.  the first and only email that was there was from a good friend.  she had forwarded it from a friend of hers.  it was asking if there is anyone who would like to adopt a baby that is due in november. … … … … … … … … I just stared.  could this be real?!?!  I forwarded it to brian and called the friend.  it was true and brian said go ahead and respond. 

I fell to the floor crying and asking the holy spirit to intercede for me because I was at a COMPLETE loss for words.

after gathering myself, I did respond.  I do not have much more info to pass along about it at this point, but the events leading up to the email are so bizarre that it seems as if it would have to be something of God.  let  me tell you a couple of them.

I’ve been dreaming that I have a baby.  not like pregnant have a baby, like in the dream I just have a baby with me.  I’ve been telling brian for the last 6 weeks to be prepared when someone drops a baby off at our door.  I had told my bible study group over the summer that I was hoping that somehow we would just get a baby.  the mother of the baby cried when she got the response from us.  the contact name at the adoption agency is a friend of one of my closest friends.  the list goes on.  really.

I’ve been pretty speechless this week.

now, I don’t know where this will lead.  I know that you can twist things when you really want something.  I’m trying to stay as centered as possible.  I’m trying to pray often.  I have many friends praying too.  maybe this little baby ends up in our home.  maybe this is just something that happens to tell us to get our things in order so that we are able to adopt.  I don’t know.  anyway, I just wanted to update everyone and let you know where I’ve been and why I am short on words at the moment.

thanks for thinking of me.  thanks for your prayers.  thanks for your kindness and caring. 

I wait for the Lord, my soul waits,

and in his word I put my hope.

My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning,

more than watchmen wait for the morning.

Psalm 130:5-6

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One Response to “the week in review…”

  1. Megan said

    Wow. I am speechless as well. As you said, you’re not sure where this will lead, but I will be praying for your family, too.

    Have a great week!

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