September 16, 2009

so, here’s what is going on. … … nothing.

we contacted the adoption agency.  we contacted the person who sent the email.  now we wait.  and wait.  nothing is happening at all.  we can’t do anything else now unless the mother of the baby would specifically say, ‘ I want brian and jenifer matthews to have this baby.’ and we aren’t hearing that.

oddly enough.  I am completely  fine with that.  it seems odd for me to even say it, but it is exactly true.  I am at peace.  a deep peace.  a contentment that I haven’t felt for awhile.

I’m wondering if all of this happened just so that I could realize how content I am….  this is my family.  this is my story.  I don’t have a baby. ……. and I am okay with that.


when peace, like a river, attendeth my way,

when sorrows like sea billows roll;

whatever my lot, thou has taught me to say

it is well, it is well with my soul.


One Response to “peace…”

  1. Joe said

    wow. praise God for that.

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